2010 Year of Change

So I have officially dubbed 2010 the year of change for our family and yes I know we're only in March. So many things have happened the past 2 months I felt like I could barely keep my head above water and so many more things are yet to happen. I'm buckling my seat belt to keep me grounded and hanging on for the ride.

This past weekend I was released as the Young Women's President. It's bittersweet because I know it's time but it's hard to leave those girls. They were the highlight of my week. Even though sometimes there was frustration they brought me great joy. I don't think it's hit me quite yet. We'll see after tonight when I don't attend the mid week activity. It will be different and probably on Sunday when I'm sitting in Relief Society...eeeee! I've been serving in YW's on and off for 8 years now. I keep telling everyone it's because I'm not getting it right they keep putting me back in there. But it's time for me to focus on my family and especially my two beautiful smunchkins. I have come a long way and feel so blessed to have these little girls in my life. I spent so much of my time with the first child trying to get things perfect and her perfect that I dreaded being a mother. I can honestly say now I don't think I'll have any greater joy in this life than being a mother. I had to do a lot of growing up and a lot of soul searching after having children(only took me 5 years) because of my own insecurities but everyday these girls make me laugh and I'm going to enjoy the time that I have with them tantrums, messes and all. According to Maryn I better get this right quick because when you're 21 you're practically old and on your way out. I had to remind her that I was 31.



One of our biggest changes this year is going to add a little boy to the mix. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I'm so thankful for the priesthood in our home. There were some concerns with the baby that have been resolved but it makes me so grateful that I have the gospel to rely on no matter what the outcome will be. After a blessing I was at peace with whatever would happened.

I don't welcome change...it's hard at first and it takes me a while to get used to but it's getting easier the more changes that happens. And I see the validity in change whether forced upon you or a decisions that needed to be made. They make you a better person. Thank you to those people who are watching out for us. I can not tell you how grateful I am to you.